The Purpose of my Existence

Every person in this world has its purpose of living. Each of them has their dreams and ambition to fulfill... like me. I have so many dreams noy only for myself but also for my family. But like an ordinary person, sometimes, or should I say most of the times, I commit mistakes and sins. And of course, Those mistakes and sins make me think of the things that I should not think of... like what?, let me say giving up and ending my life... funny right but that is really what I feel. But thinking of my family makes me stronger and builds up determination in myself to reach my dreams.

My aim and dream is just as simple as I want to hear my parents say,"Thanks, anak, you made us so proud of you" and my brothers say,"you are the best ate in the whole wide world". Boastful?... for me no that was exactly what I want and I will do everything to fullfil that dream.

Sometimes, my parents are telling me that when I grow up, I will just leave them anywhere and not care for them but if only they know what I feel everytime that they are sayng those things to me. What is inside my mind is that "They are the my legs when I still cannot stand on my own. They are my hands when I still cannot use them for eating or what, and they are there for me, whenever I need help, so let's say I grow older and I am independent how will I be able to eat without thinking if they already eat. How will I be able to sleep without thinking if they are comfortable in their bed. So tell me...how will I be able to do things without them and without thinking about them".

So now I can say that my family is my purpose for living and the purpose of my existence.